Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Beautiful Allison, Our Hearts are Broken.


I am really sad. I've been moping around the house or staring out into space for days now. I look up at Herself and she looks down at me and I know what she's thinking ... it's the same thing I'm thinking and feeling, we are both really sad.

Allison, someone we love very, very, very much has gone to heaven. I knew something was wrong because Herself was crying for days. Then she sat me down and told me that Allison got really sick and went to the hospital and although the Doctors tried, they couldn't make her better. So, she went to heaven. The nurse said that Allison said to her two days before, "I'm going to go to heaven".

Oh my!

She was beautiful and I loved being around her ... and she loved me too. Every time she spoke to Herself on the phone she'd ask, "How's that Dawg". Isn't that silly to call me - a Dawg? I didn't mind 'cause Allison could call me anything she wanted. We have pictures of me playing and laughing with Allison and her son, my absolute best friend, Graham. He's a big boy now, he's eight years old, just a bit older than me. I just know he is missing his Mommy very much. He used to say to her, "Mommy, you're prettier than Britney Spears". I certainly agreed with that. Actually, there was no comparison. Allison was beautiful ... inside and out. Her son adored her. He would walk into a store and point out something and say, "I'm going to tell Daddy to buy that for Mommy". He must have learned generosity from her. She was one of the most generous humans I know ... she would bring me things ... like one of my favorite toys, a penguin in a Santa outfit. I love that thing. I love Allison. You couldn't help loving her.

I don't know very much about heaven, but Herself tells me that it is the most beautiful place in all of the Universe and everyone in Heaven is very happy and healthy and feel at peace. There is lots of all-encompassing Love. I've been wondering, can dogs go to heaven?

My eyes get all teary and I rub my eyes with my paw. It just doesn't seem the same knowing that I won't see her again ... unless I'm a very good dog and I, too, go to heaven one day (when I'm very old). I know I will run up to meet her. I'll give her a lot of licks and she'll give me lots of pats and hugs. She would laugh. She had a wonderful laugh and a big, fabulous smile. I'll smile at her too, but it won't look at pretty as hers 'cause my front tooth is missing.

Herself, AuntJ and I miss you very much, Allison ... we will never, ever forget you. I know you knew that we loved you very much and will think of you always. You shone and you are shinning in Heaven and when the Moon is very bright, I look up and feel your bright, fabulous smile shinning down on me.

I'll still wait by the door ... in case you come.